Driving home from church one Sunday, after a pretty difficult morning, God reminded me that He is in control. Between the technical issues, difficult conversations, and an all-around crazy morning I was just exhausted and beating myself up over the conversations of the morning. I just kept thinking I should have said this and not that. I questioned whether or not I had just pushed students away. Then God just spoke and said…“Do you really think your words have that much power?” It’s wasn’t an audible voice but it might have well been because the thought rang so loud in my head.
In that moment I realized my thoughts weren’t focused in the right place. The focus was on me and what my words could do, not on God’s power to change students’ lives. Sure, that morning’s conversations didn’t go as well I had hoped they would. But that didn’t mean God wasn’t going to use it or that I somehow completely ruined His plan. He was in complete control and was going to work everything out for the good.
It can be challenging at times to not be disappointed in ourselves or second guess how we led a student. But as leaders, we need to remember who is ultimately in control. That Sunday wasn’t the first time I second-guessed how I handled a situation and it won’t be my last either.